It's called "Infertility, The Unopened Gift". And it came with a card that read,
Lord God, What will you give me, seeing I go childless?
Genesis 15:2God gives to each many gifts. Some have been opened, while others remain unopened. Either way, God will provide the gift or gifts He has designed and created for you. He will give you the desire of your heart or remove the desire. Waiting is hard, but remember, God's timing is perfect.
Hear my prayer, O Lord God almighty; listen to me, O God of Jacob. Look upon our shield O God; look with favor on your annoited one.
Psalm 84: 8-9This tiny little gift box is a symbol that God has a special gift for you. You may not know what it is yet, but one day you will praise the Lord for the 'gift' from above.
When I read the card that came with the charm I cried like I haven't cried in a long time. I want to open this gift, but for some reason God's timing hasn't allowed me to do so. I feel like a child before Christmas staring longingly at all the gifts under the tree. I have this desire to grab the gift and open it, but I know that I can't because it's not time. It's so hard to be patient, and I don't like it at all, but in the end I know this isn't my journey to write. I just have to patiently wait for God to hand me the gift on the perfect day that He has planned and give me permission to open it. Much like we all do on Christmas morning.
I do believe that God will give me the desire of my heart to become a mom. I just don't know how. Will he remove the desire to become a mother to J's child if it's not His will for that to happen? I certainly hope so because this longing that fills my soul is so strong. I hope that at that perfect time God will hand me the gift and have me open it, but if not, I know that God will take care of me and see me through the process of mourning my infertility before we move on to adoption. But in the meantime I pray every day that I can open this precious gift. And friends, I pray that for you as well!!! And for those of you who have already been given this precious gift to open, I celebrate with you!!
If you'd like to order this charm click here. They also have an adoption charm called "The Chosen Hand".
10 comments:
JK you have such a sweet Momma! I DO pray that God will allow you to open that gift, the one YOU so desire. I pray that His will for you is what you long for. I can't imagine and won't even try to pretend that I know what you feel. My pessimistic side would say this about the Christmas analogy,
"At least at Christmas as a child I could "peak" at those gifts. If I were really good I could carefully remove the tape and get a glimpse and no one would ever know."
You see I hear that in my head and the Lord reminds me just how much I DON'T know what you are going through and He reminds me to be more sensitive and to pray even more for you, and all your friends here that I have never even met. Thank you for the strength you showed in being able to celebrate with those of us who have been able to open that gift, although, at times I'm sure you wish we would all disappear! I love you Wanna and I pray that you are given the desires of your heart!
Ang
Holy MoLy the water works ....... I am at work just streaming tears down my face ... your mother, the sweet gesture, the beautiful analogy, the necklace, your words .... All true and inspiring and filled with peace .. I just enjoy finding peace in posts like yours. Thank you for passing on such wonderful peaceful spirit in a not so peaceful world.
That is so beautiful....what a sweet, sweet gift-and a lovely reminder.
Wow, what a lovely sentiment for your mother to give to you. I hope you get to open your gift very, very soon! :)
That's really wonderfully sweet. What a fabulous mom you have! I can't wait until you get to open that gift.
All I want to say is thank you for this post... It's along the lines of what I have come to understand and this is just confirmation.
We will get to open our pressies soon, just hang in there.
What a sweet charm. And a sweet momma. You are such a lucky gal!
Such a sweet gift from your mom! I would've cried like a baby too.
This is the hardest wait but I pray everyday that it pays off for all of us. XOXO
What a great moment between you and your mom...and what a great thing to pass down once you get to open that gift:)
Oh my! I love that charm... it made me teary eyed too. How sweet of your mom.
I can't wait to open my gift either.
When I was little I used to (along with my sisters) scratch little bitty holes on the wrapping paper of my gifts. I wanted to get a tiny peek at what was under that paper.
God I wish I could that now! lol
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