1 Week Down

And 1 to go. I'm not really analyzing my chart. I know better. Just putting in my temps and logging off. I haven't even been on the FF and LP boards much. I just don't feel like chatting with people who want to know about my symptoms and who look at my chart and get all excited with a temp jump or dip. Nope. This cycle I'm taking it easy and rolling with the punches. I don't want to get all excited for nothing. Isn't it sad what this journey does over time?

Please say a prayer for me tonight (if you're the praying type). I'm invited to MW's (my fertile myrtle friend) house for a Pamp.ered Ch.ef (PC) party, and 3 of the ladies who will be there are pregnant. I'm SOOO not looking forward to this, but I don't want to hurt MW's feelings by not going, and honestly, I REALLY like PC stuff, and there are things that I really want to buy. So I'm going. I'm going to suck it up and go. Please Lord...don't let there be too much pregnancy happiness!!!! I know I'm almost through the tww, and there's a possiblility that I am pregnant right now, but I'm in that "I have no idea, but I don't really think I am" stage so I really don't want to hear about all their pregnancies. Maybe I should show up late just in time for the demonstration and ordering. Hmmmm, that's an idea.

10DPO...

...and trying not to read into anything too much. Here's my chart so far...and if I must say so, it's pretty awsome looking. But we all know that a beautiful chart does not a BFP make! Just trying to stay realistic here, but I'm having a really hard time!

I'm Out!

I had a huge temp dip this morning so AF is on her way. Guess I won't get to be a preggers buddy with MW after all. That would have been too nice of a story. Now I get to throw more money down the drain for another IUI cycle. Bitter??? You betcha!

Update...Just saw my friend MW...burst into tears the minute I saw her. So I went out and bought me a bottle of wine, some chocolate, and a new box of hair color...I'm good...for now.

Update #2...who the hell am I kidding?? I'm not fine. I'm not pregnant, my would-be due date is in 4 days, I have a friend who's pregnant and I have to see every day for the next 8 months, and my hair turned out black despite it saying the color was medium brown. It can't get any worse, can it??? God, please don't let it get any worse!!! I don't know how much more of this I can take!!!!

Why Do I Do This To Myself?

I broke down and tested yesterday because I'm weak...BFN. Not a total shock. But the thing is...I was only 11DPO, but I thought I was 12DPO so now I seem like even more of a dork! WHY DO I DO THIS TO MYSELF EVERY MONTH????? Where's my padded room? *runs away screaming*

Nauseated and So Tired...

After 18 months of this I know better than to think about such things, but the nausea has been here for 3 days, and I've been tired for the last 2 days. It's hard not to think about whether this is something good. I broke down and tested last night (I know...shame on me for testing at 10DPO) and like I suspected it was a BFN. (I didn't dare tell J that I tested!) I never got early BFP's with my other pregnancies so I don't know why I thought I would if I'm pregnant this time, but a girl can hope.

We're off to visit my folks this weekend. J will be back Sunday evening, but I won't be back until Monday. Y'all have a great weekend, and I HOPE to be coming back online with some good news soon!!!

On Pins and Needles

I'm 8DPO, and I'm dying to know if I'm pregnant or not. I've done well so far because we've been out of town visiting J's family, but now that I'm home the wait is going to kill me! Will-power...I need will-power!!!

1DPO Today...

Well, I'm officially in the 2ww. Thankfully I'll have lots to keep my mind off everything. We're leaving tomorrow to go visit J's family. Then we'll be back for a week, and then we'll take a weekend trip to see my family. I should know if we're pregnant or not before we go see my family. Don't know if we'll tell them anything if we are. Guess we'll cross that bridge when we get there.

I won't be able to get back on here again until we get back home, so Happy 4th of July a little early!

Holy Temp Dip Batman!!!

So now I'm 11DPO. FF moved my O date from CD14 to CD16. And this morning I woke up to a 98.0 temp. I really don't think it's an implant dip...I had no covers on when I woke up so the dip is pretty deceptive. Wish I had some better news...isn't the roller coaster fun???

7DPO Today...

FF says that I O'd on CD14, but I'm not sure I agree with them. Regardless of the discrepancy I'm 1 week into the 2ww. So far I'm doing pretty good. Normally I'm chomping at the bit to test, but I think I'm pretty calm this month. I'm hoping I can hold out until my FF test date. (Fingers crossed!) J will be out of town all next week with work so when I do test he won't be here. Hopefully I'll have a great homecoming surprise for him when he returns!!!

I'm trying really hard not to read too much into the symptoms I'm having. I do have an occasional cramp, I'm pretty bloated, I'm thirsty all the time, and I'm VERY fatigued. I'm hoping those are all good signs, but I'm not banking on them just yet. The thing that's bothering me is how tired I am. I'm taking a 2 hour nap every day. Normally I would think that it's too early to be this tired, but the fact that I'm so tired really has me wondering if something's going on in there. Hopefully there's a little bean in there finding a nice home...we'll see in a week or so.