I'm Feeling So Blessed!!

I don't know why, but for some reason today, I am feeling extremely blessed. I know I should always feel blessed, and I do, but today it's different. Nothing special happened today to make me feel more blessed than I normally do. But for some reason today my heart feels so full!! Y'all are probably so completely confused by now, and I'm sorry I can't put into better words how I'm feeling.

I'm thankful for...

• the BEAUTIFUL weather we've had this week. It's just been AMAZING...clear blue skies, soft breezes blowing, low humidity, highs in the low-mid 80's and lows in the 60's. It's just been one of those weeks where I want to spend every moment outdoors.
• that my family and friends made it through Ike okay. Mom has power and no damage to their house.
• my wonderful husband. I know I complain at how he doesn't help around the house enough, and I roll my eyes when he leaves things lying around b/c he doesn't think about putting them away probably b/c he knows I'll do it for him, but I LOVE HIM SO MUCH!! I don't know what I would do without him.
• for my bloggy readers who let me rant when I need to and don't judge me, offer support when I'm on my knees, and celebrate the the successes along with me. You girls are the best!!!
• my infertility...That probably made y'all say "huh?" But today I received an email from a friend, M. She has a friend named Whitney who recently had a m/c at 10 weeks. Had I not had my losses, M would not have come to me to ask what she can do for Whitney, and I would not have been able to offer words of wisdom, books to recommend for her to read, or recommend something tangible to buy for her that will serve as a reminder of how precious her little angel is. I know that helping other isn't the reason God allowed my losses to occur, but now that I'm in a more healthy place I am able to see this as a positive thing that came from our pain. A year ago I never would have dreamed that I would be where I am today. I felt stuck in my pain, and today I feel free. I'll never forget our journey, but looking back I'm amazed at how far I've come, and quite honestly it's ALL BY THE GRACE OF GOD!!

I hope you all know that I pray for you often. Sometimes it's by name b/c I feel burdened to do so, but other times it's a prayer for "my bloggy friends". God knows who you are!! If there's ever anything you want me to pray for you about, please email me and let me know!! I would LOVE to pray for you about anything specific that's on your heart!! I know there are several of you who don't worship God or pray, and I hope that I haven't offended you by praying for you!!

CD1

Well, AF showed...I guess. It's still nothing more than spotting, but I talked with my OB's nurse this morning, and she said to go ahead and call today CD1. In talking with her I've decided to take a break this cycle because for the second cycle in a row all I've done is spot...not even light flow. That concerns me. My doctor is on vacation until the 25th, so we've scheduled a consult appt for the 27th to talk about our options and to discuss all the questions I have. I'm not doing another IUI until I've had an HSG to check my tubes and to see if there's any scarring left from my D&C back in Jan. If there's a chance that in the last 9 months that my tubes have become blocked or that there is scarring from the D&C then the IUI's are futile and a huge waste of money. He may go ahead and refer me an RE, and I probably will make the appt so they can run all the tests in the book on me. My insurance will cover all the tests and procedures...just no treatments. (Don't even get me started on how unfair that is!!!) I want so badly to try this month, but at this point I want answers and not treatments. KWIM?