I'm Feeling So Blessed!!

I don't know why, but for some reason today, I am feeling extremely blessed. I know I should always feel blessed, and I do, but today it's different. Nothing special happened today to make me feel more blessed than I normally do. But for some reason today my heart feels so full!! Y'all are probably so completely confused by now, and I'm sorry I can't put into better words how I'm feeling.

I'm thankful for...

• the BEAUTIFUL weather we've had this week. It's just been AMAZING...clear blue skies, soft breezes blowing, low humidity, highs in the low-mid 80's and lows in the 60's. It's just been one of those weeks where I want to spend every moment outdoors.
• that my family and friends made it through Ike okay. Mom has power and no damage to their house.
• my wonderful husband. I know I complain at how he doesn't help around the house enough, and I roll my eyes when he leaves things lying around b/c he doesn't think about putting them away probably b/c he knows I'll do it for him, but I LOVE HIM SO MUCH!! I don't know what I would do without him.
• for my bloggy readers who let me rant when I need to and don't judge me, offer support when I'm on my knees, and celebrate the the successes along with me. You girls are the best!!!
• my infertility...That probably made y'all say "huh?" But today I received an email from a friend, M. She has a friend named Whitney who recently had a m/c at 10 weeks. Had I not had my losses, M would not have come to me to ask what she can do for Whitney, and I would not have been able to offer words of wisdom, books to recommend for her to read, or recommend something tangible to buy for her that will serve as a reminder of how precious her little angel is. I know that helping other isn't the reason God allowed my losses to occur, but now that I'm in a more healthy place I am able to see this as a positive thing that came from our pain. A year ago I never would have dreamed that I would be where I am today. I felt stuck in my pain, and today I feel free. I'll never forget our journey, but looking back I'm amazed at how far I've come, and quite honestly it's ALL BY THE GRACE OF GOD!!

I hope you all know that I pray for you often. Sometimes it's by name b/c I feel burdened to do so, but other times it's a prayer for "my bloggy friends". God knows who you are!! If there's ever anything you want me to pray for you about, please email me and let me know!! I would LOVE to pray for you about anything specific that's on your heart!! I know there are several of you who don't worship God or pray, and I hope that I haven't offended you by praying for you!!

I just have to say...

I LOVE YOU ALL!!!! Just reading your comments about how you also think the comments from my last post are absurd just makes my day!! Really it does!!


The worst part about this...the comments were made on a FERTILITY SITE!!!! I hang my head in shame at these people's ignorance!!! I realize we all have differing political views, but regardless of what they are...we are talking about CHILDREN here! And no matter how you go about getting them, whether through ART, or private adoption or foster-adopt, no one should be chastised or put down for the methods they choose!!!


I'm sorry to post my rantings about this, but it's all part of the adoption process, and since more people wanted to know about our journey I decided to post the good, the bad, and the ugly! That's all I'll say about that!! Back to our regularly scheduled blogging!!! *giggle*

I'm Ranting...You've Been Warned!

I am so tired of hearing people complain about how many children are in the foster care system and insinuating that we should be adopting them rather than adopting an infant. The direct quote in a thread about how the foster care system was going to get overloaded if abortion was legalized was,

"I think the problem is that many people are waiting/wanting to adopt an "infant", but there are already many "children" available for adoption."

I'm just not seeing how we're the problem. So I told her that the problem wasn't us wanting an infant. The problem is that there are far too many parents out there who have no clue how to parent. I saw it first hand when I was a teacher, and it broke my heart how children were treated, neglected, and left to fend for themselves while their parents partied all night. I then went on to say that I was in favor of free counseling and parenting classes and even mentoring programs for those who are needing some help. Now, I am not so niave to believe that counseling will fix all of their problems, but I think it can help a good number of them and give them a place to start.

I also took the time to let her know how offended I was at her comment. I just don't understand why those of us who can't have biological children are supposed to rid the system of all foster children. If I could have a biological child I would get an infant, so why is it that since I can't have a child that I should no longer want an infant or no longer deserve to adopt one? That thought process just boggles my mind. I am not opposed to adopting through the foster system, and since private adoptions are so pricey, that may be the way we go aobut adopting our next child, but to say that we are the problem there are so many children in foster care is just ludicrous.

Then the arguement was raised that there would be no way for these girls who can no longer receive an abortion to pay for their medical care while they're pregnant without a universal healthcare system in place.

So once again I chimed in and told them that women are allowed to receive Medicaid while they are pregnant so they can receive proper prenatal care.

Someone then said that she felt there would be more women dumping their babies in back alleys, garbage cans, etc...

I mentioned the "safe baby haven" program that the government has set up that allows a mother to drop her baby off at a police station, hospital, or fire station with no questions asked. I admit that this program was not perfect, and there needed to be more advertising about it on fac.ebo.ok, my.spa.ce, tv, etc... But I believe it's cut down on the number of abandonments dramatically.

I used to have a saying that I said quite a lot, "I hate stupid people." But I've quit saying it b/c it can be quite offensive. However, in this case I believe I will pull it out of the closet!!

Okay...rant over...back to my normal happy blogging self!!

Hurricane Gustav Update

As you can see we have power!!! Surprisingly we held power for about half of the storm. I was even able to cook lunch for us and run the dishwasher in the middle of a hurricane. CRAZY!! Then about 2:40 the power went out. The winds were CRAZY strong and very scary. At one point I looked out the door to the carport to see our basketball goal fall over. Luckily we had J's car under the carport, otherwise his car would have been damaged. Our fence blew over, and we had water blow in under the front door, but we have slate tile in the entryway, so we just mopped it with towels and moved on. We also had water come up through (what we think is) a crack in our foundation b/c water was seeping through the grout in one part of our den. But, we just sopped it up, put towels down and that was that. We'll worry about the crack later. Through the worst of the storm we heard two of our neighbor's trees snap in two. Luckily they both fell towards their fence and not towards their house. This couple is so incredibly nice, they are from Nicaragua and this is their first hurricane to go through. She was very shaken up.

Our cable went out about 2:00, so I haven't seen any pictures of the aftermath. It was hard to keep up with what was going on with just a radio. It seemed to be that we were located in just the right spot...far enough away from the eye that we didn't have the worst of the storm winds, and yet close enough to it to keep from being hammered by the squal lines as they whipped around.

Thank you so much for your prayers! Please keep praying for all those along the coast as well as those who will be affected as the storm moves on.

Here are a few pics from what went on in our world today...

Our fence blew over when Rita hit in 2005, and our backyard neighbor "fixed" it by piggy-backing new posts to the old posts putting the new ones in cement. J offered to help him pay for a new fence but he said he could handle it. Today the new posts snapped at the base just above the cement. Looks like we'll handle the new fence this time b/c clearly he had no idea what he was doing.

Here's our basketball goal where Jon normally parks his car.

This is our neighbor's back yard. It only shows one tree down, but the fence that has fallen to the side of their property was knocked down by the second tree.

I tried to take pictures of the wind blowing the rain sideways, but in the pictures it comes out looking like fog. So I took a video. This was obviously not taken during the worst of Gustav. I was too scared to go outside at the height of the storm. This was taken during one of the "respites" we had, and before our neighbor's trees were knocked down. Hope it works!! I sound really weird on the video for some reason. I don't normally talk that weird. I promise!! lol

Ahhh, Hurricanes...Gotta Love the Chaos!

NOT!!!

Man, things are really a buzz here in Baton Rouge. I went to top off my tank and then get some last minute things from the store...it was CRAZY! No one is panicking, but it's a good sign to see so many people preparing. My motto is to prepare for the worst and pray for the best! There are so many things in our pantry loaded with carbs, but at a time like this I threw my IR diet out the window.

J has been working yesterday and today. He is part of the coordination group at Exx.on, and while management has been trying to make the decision to shut down the plant here in BR, or get it to minimal capacity, or keep it up and running at full capacity, Jon has had to come up with all the different scenarios to help them achieve whatever form of capacity they decide upon. He called about an hour ago to tell me that they are leaving the plant up. Apparently, we're only supposed to get 30-50 mph sustained winds with 70 mph gusts here in BR, and they think it will be safe to keep running at full capacity under those conditions. (umm, okay) But since then, he's gotten several frantic phone calls about possible problems, and he's having to deal with all that.

This will probably be my last post for a while. The news is reporting that we should be prepared in the BR area to be without power for up to a week. Fun times!!! With Katrina we had our power back at 7:00pm the day she hit, so I'm hoping we'll get the same great service from our energy provider this go around 'cuz this very hot natured person does NOT do well without AC.

I'm very impressed with our government officials. Our new governor started evacuating hospitals and nursing home days ago, shelters have been opened with provisions for pets (which was a HUGE reason many with transportation chose to stay during Katrina b/c they couldn't take their pets to the shelters), Jindal issued voluntary evacuation orders a few days ago, and all parishes on the coast are now under mandatory evacuation orders. There have been hundreds of busses ready for days to evacuate the people who are without transportation, and the national guard troops are down there helping with security. It's been amazing to see how all the branches (local, state and national) of government working together this time. With Katrina our then governor, Blanco, shrugged off help until it was too late. By the time she realized she was in over her head, there wasn't much anyone could do. And afterwards it was mass chaos b/c no one knew where to start b/c the damage was so bad. I'm go glad she's no longer our governor!!!

Please say a prayer for all who are on the gulf coast. This storm could cause massive devastation if it comes on as a Cat 4 or large Cat 3!! And some people are just now getting back into their houses after Katrina only to have to leave again.

Very Cool Video

Sneaky Project A Success!!!

Here's the before pics (This is not our furniture. These are pics I took the day we made an offer on the house 3 years ago. I don't have any "before" pics of our den with all our stuff in it. But you get the idea...Take a look at the horrible paneling!!)

And After...

And the best part...I did it all for under $500!!!

ETA: Sorry, forgot to write about J's reaction. He loves it! He keeps saying that he can't believe it's the same room. His favorite things in the room are the curtains and the rug. I thought he would ahve a hreat attack about painting the fireplace, but surprisingly, he likes that too. He teased me and said I had been watching to much HGTV...probably right since I was flat on my back for 3 weeks after surgery.

Being Sneaky

We have this hideous paneling in our den that I've been wanting to paint for some time now, but with my arthritis giving me problems I've put it off. My friend L decided that we were going to tackle it this week while J was in NYC and surprise him with a complete makeover when he comes home Sunday night. L doesn't pay full price for anything, so we went to Ben.jami.n Mo.or.e today, bought 4 gallons of "oops" paint for $6 a can, mixed them all together and came out with this gorgeous sagey mossy green. We came home, got the walls and fireplace primed, and started painting...It looks AMAZING!!! I'm so excited!!

But the sneakiness doesn't stop there. I went with L and her mom to a furniture liquidator and found a 5x8 rug for $88!! And we found a TV stand for $75!! So, we moved the entertainment center to the curb, we're putting the TV console table from the living room in the den, and we're putting the new TV stand in the living room. The only thing left to do is find new curtains, a few throw pillows and a couple things to hang on the walls. It would be SO exciting to be able to do this makeover for under $500!!! With L in charge I know that can be done! Hopefully we can have all this finished by Sunday night when J comes home!! He'll be SO surprised!!!!

We had hail damage from a storm a few months back. The roofers came today...can't wait to see it all complete!! J may think he's in the wrong house with all the changes that are taking place!!

Lonesome Ramblings

I had a wonderful visit with my BFF Sarah and her little girl Em. They came in on Wednesday and I just dropped them off at the airport a little while ago. While they were here we went to the Children's Museum in New Orleans, we rode the carousel at the mall, I took them to see Mike the Tiger on the LSU campus, we went swimming (well, they swam while I sat on the side taking pictures b/c of my boot), we went to Chu.ck E. Che.ese's, and it wouldn't be a trip if we did shop 'til we dropped. I just love their annual visit! Sarah and I got our BFF scrapbook brought up to date, though now we're officially behind again. HA HA!

A little background on Sarah...she and I were roomates in college for the last year and a half we were there. And we have been best friends ever since. Sometimes it's so hard to believe that we've known each other for 13 years! And in all those years I don't think we've ever had a fight. Sure, we got annoyed by the other a time or two, but it's just the easiest friendship I have in my life. I just love her to bits, and our moms are great friends, too.

Sarah's little girl is 5 years old, and about a year ago, Sarah had the itch to have another baby, but she decided that she wasn't having another one until I had a baby. Can you believe that??? Of course, I told her to go ahead and try again, but she would have nothing of it. I know she wants another baby so badly, but to have a friend who puts your happiness ahead of her own is just so rare. She's a true blessing, and I couldn't thank God enough for bringing us together 13 years ago!!! I hope that each of you have a friend like Sarah! And if you do...thank the Lord for her, and then go tell her how much you love her!!!

J also left this morning, but he's headed to NYC. He is taking a group from our Sunday School class on a "vacation with a purpose". They'll be working in a soup kitchen for 3 days, and then for the rest of the week they will be typical tourists loose in the city! We have a friend who is a missionary in NY, and they will be working with him. I wish I could have gone, and my heart just aches b/c I'm am not on that plane with them, but I know that my foot needs the rest. Please keep them in your prayers...traveling mercies, safety while they are there, and that God will bless their efforts in a mighty way.

Hmmm, I have the whole week to myself...what's a girl in a big black bionic boot (as J calls it) to do???

Number 18 on the way

Yes, you read that right...the Duggar family has 17 children, but they found out Monday that they are pregnant with their 18th child. What amazes me is that their youngest is only 9 months old!!

Click here for the Today Show announcement

I gotta tell you I'm extremely jealous of her fertility. But I know that I could never run the "ship" that she runs. So on one hand I'm glad this was her calling and not mine! But on the other hand I wish that I could just have one.

Most people would question whether their children are well taken care of, but I honestly believe that they are. They are well-spoken, well-behaved, and seem to be very happy. The children amaze me with their graciousness, and when the anouncement was made on live TV, every child looked genuinely happy that another child would be joining their family. I'm just in awe...I wonder how many they'll have.

GRRRRRR!!!!

I will be ranting...consider yourself warned!!!

J has been working so much, and this is driving me insane!! He's not "here" even when he's sitting on the couch next to me. I'm just so tired of his new job. I keep thinking about what I'm going to do when I have a baby here all day with me and he doesn't get home in time to help with ANYTHING. My friend MW is going through the baby blues right now, and I know a lot of that is hormones, but a big part of it is her feeling like she can't get away for a moment alone and the fact that she hasn't gotten a good night's sleep in weeks. I won't experience all the post-pregnancy hormones, but I will experience the extreme fatigue and the longing to get away (even if it's to go to work), and it makes me very anxious about motherhood because J is already working so much now. And it won't change when a baby is here. He just has too many responsibilities at work.

So last night J was complaining about his job again, but this time I chimed in. I have been very good about being supportive when he's too tired to do anything or when he's griping about work. But yesterday it all got to me, so I chimed in, and he got mad at me!!!! GRRRRR!!! I tried really hard to get him to understand that this isn't just about him. That it affects me too. And I tried to talk to him without crying, but the tears started flowing as soon as I said, "This isn't just about you, you know."

I know I'm thinking WAY ahead here, but I can't help it. I dread being at home alone, but add all the responsibilities of a newborn to all the ones I already have, and life without much help just doesn't sound appealing. I feel for J, I really do. It's not anything he can help. I guess who I'm mad at is his company. How they can expect one person to handle all he has to do is beyond me. J doesn't burn out easily, and he puts his heart and soul into ANYTHING he does, but I can already see him burning out. And how a company can sit back and let that happen just angers me to no end.

Rant over...back to the regularly scheduled excitement about adopting!!!

New Computer

And I already HATE Microsoft Vista!!!!!!!!! Blech!!!! I miss XP!!!!! And what computer doesn't come with Office??? Now I've got to go spend another $100 to get Microsoft Office. I'm having to use AOL b/c my internet installation CD isn't compatible with Vista. I've had to cancel AOL before, and it was a pain in the BUTT!!! I'm dreading that phone call already!!!

Despite all the whining and griping about all the changes I really do like our new computer. I couldn't talk J into a laptop, but this thing is so tiny!! And we finally have a flat screen monitor!! WOO HOO!!! I love it!!! It's just taking some getting used to. Did y'all have issues getting used to a new keyboard? And how do you feel about Vista? Will I like it once I get used to it?

J is off to a friend's wedding in El Paso this weekend. So to pass the time I rented No Reservations, Enchanted and Juno. Maddie and I have big plans to lay around all weekend!! Sounds like fun, huh?

Where Has the Time Gone?

Many apologies for neglecting my blog. There hasn't been much going on in life until two days ago when our computer at home crashed. But I wasn't worried when that happened...I had everything backed up! SO I THOUGHT!!!

Two weeks ago before I left on my scrapbooking trip I backed up the computer. I dragged the "My Documents" folder onto our external hard drive, and it spent almost an hour copying files. When it was done I looked on the F drive and there were all of our pictures, documents, music files, etc....

Our computer has been running really slowly lately so we started poking around on it and noticed that several things were appearing on our computer several times. So we started deleting some of the copies. That's when the computer went haywire. J tended to the computer for hours and got it all up and running and I transferred the files from the external to the computer. That's when we noticed all of our adoption stuff, our financial files, and many other important files that were in our "My Doctuments" folder were missing from the external. I panicked!!! All those files were in the folder on the external when I left town. J thinks that our computer just didn't accept them when I loaded them back on and wiped them off the F drive somehow. He ran some recovery software, and some of the files were found, but of course not the adoption files or the financial records.

The computer had been acting up lately (not keeping our internet history even though we have it set to hold it for 5 days...the fan starts running really loudly if we're watching videos or listening to music, and it sounds like an airplane taking off...taking forever to boot up and shut down, etc...). But even with those things happening we figured we had a few more months to save up more money for a new one. Boy were we wrong!!!

J thinks that our computer reverted back to a date in October during the recovery process for some reason because he found last year's financial records up to October, but nothing from 2008 (which is when all the adoption stuff was added to the computer.) This has been a nightmare!!!!!

We're buying a new computer tomorrow, but we're lost without our financial stuff, and I'm just sick about our adoption stuff. We had already started writing our Dear BM letter, and I had some information that people had sent me about agencies and books and info about adoption. Our autobiographies that we spent HOURS writing for our HS are lost, but the agency is faxing me a copy so I can retype them on the new computer.

Now for the good news...
Our photo books that our potential BM's will look through came in, and they look AWESOME!!!!

Adoption News...
We're almost done filling out our applications for both agencies. We just have to get our family history, and that means that I have to call my dad (YUCK) to ask about my grandparents. I've tried asking my mom, but she doesn't remember. (Damn!) We're almost to the waiting point!!!! YEA!!!!!

Funny News...
I had to go see Dr. K so he could fill out a form for St. Eliz.abeth's stating that he deemed me infertile. (To remind you...St. E's give priority to infertiles...the one time being infertile has it's perks!) He came in his office and walked over like he always does to shake my hand, but this time he said, "I know you well enough to get a hug, right?" Then we talked a bit about why I was there. He said this was the first time he had ever had to fill out something this detailed. (Normally it's just a form that states that you're physically, mentally and emotionally stable enough to adopt.) He had to fill out my whole history...all procedures, all treatments, miscarriages, etc...He started laughing when it asked about my teeth. He told me to smile, and then he wrote that my teeth were healthy. He had to write my pulse rate and blood pressure, which were both elevated (130/90 and 90 bpm) b/c I had talked to J about the computer right before they took me back. He said, "That's not gonna look good." and then winked*. Then he had to write about whether I was emotionally stable enough to be a parent, and he looked up at me and said, "Well, we've never hung out socially, but you never had an emotional meltdown in my office, so I'm gonna have to say that I find you emotionally stable enough. If only I had to answer that question about all my patients."

It took him about 10-15 minutes to fill everything out. He handed it to me to read over, and I noticed everything showed that I was healthy (*wink, wink) and completely infertile. As I was leaving he said, "Please keep us posted on what happens especially since I've had to fill all this out." I laughed and said, "Yeah, now you're vested in this, huh?" And he said the sweetest thing..."I've been vested in this for you, girl." Awww, I love my doc.

He walked out after me and said, "You know what's gonna happen don't you?" And I said, "It better not now that I'm back on the Meth.otre.xate. But wouldn't that be ironic?" He winked and said, "That's why you're on the folic acid, but I'd be much more comfortable if it didn't happen. I'll see ya soon, and you better have a baby in tow."

Arthritis News...
I went to see Dr. C a couple weeks ago and she upped my Metho.trex.ate to 20mg/week and my Remi.cade to 600mg every 8 weeks, and I FEEL AMAZING!!!! I am FINALLY back to my old self. I haven't hit the gym just yet. I want to wait until after my next Remi.cade infusion, but I am PRAISING GOD that I am feeling better. My endless flare that began in October is FINALLY OVER!!!!! I can walk without limping, I can open jars without J's help, I can do laundry without my hands hurting, and I can do housework without feeling it for days afterwards (though I think I'll keep the housekeeper once a month b/c I've gotten spoiled!). I have waited for this day for months, and it's finally here!!!! A day without pain is just amazing!!!!

So that's what life in the Haik household has been like lately.

Happy Wednesday y'all!!!

My Hectic Life

Gosh, I feel like such a dweeb for not posting much lately. Life has been really hectic but it's nothing "post worthy". (HA HA...that made me think of Elaine's "sponge worthy" on Seinfeld.) But for those interested in my crazy hectic life I'll give you the run-down of what's been going on. Please don't feel obligated to read on.

Monday...work from 9-2, then I scheduled an appt for 4/30 with a podiatrist to take a look at my bunion which will more than likely have to be removed. (You're dreading the fact that you started reading, huh???)

Yesterday...work from 9-2. Then I ran (okay, not literally...HA HA) home to freshen up and change clothes to be at an awards ceremony from 4-6. A little background...I'm in charge of a ministry at church where we go in and work with students at a local elementary school through Volunteers in Public Schools (VIPS). And our church was nominated for an award for our service. Unfortunately I don't know if we won or not because I had to leave the ceremony early so I could get to another church at 6:00 to teach the Vacation Bible School (VBS) music to all the people who will be leading the music for their own church's VBS this summer. It was a crazy night!!!

Today...work from 9-3. Then head home to feed Maddie, let her out, clean up around the house, and then get to church for choir rehearsal.

Tomorrow...My friend MW is being induced so I'm heading to the hospital at some point to go meet her new baby. We have our meeting with St. Eliz.abeth's Adoption Agency from 7-9pm.

Friday...clean house in the AM. At some point in the afternoon we'll head to Oc.ean Spr.ings, MS (2.5 hours away) to go to an adoption seminar for Ne.w Begin.nings from 6-8 and then we'll head home afterwards.

Saturday...J's individual meeting with our SW at 10:00. (Lord, please let it actually happen!!!)

See...nothing really "post worthy", but I was feeling bad about not blogging so I decided to tell you about my busy, but boring life. I commend anyone who made it all the way through the post!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY J!!

Today J turns 34!!! Maddie and I started the day by singing to him. He loves to hear us sing!! ;o)For lunch we went to our favorite burger joint in Kem.ah, TX (Tooki.es). Then I went shopping with Mom while J went home to work. Poor guy having to work on his b-day. The real celebrating started tonight. We ordered catfish from J's favorite place in Pasa-get-down-dena (Su.dies). I made him his favorite cake (strawberry with strawberry icing) and we had his favorite ice cream (Blu.e Be.ll Vani.lla Be.an). We sat out on Mom's patio and looked at their new pool. We couldn't get in yet...the chemicals aren't right yet. Mom and Charley gave J money (which will be put in the baby fund) and a puzzle. J had a great time playing with the puzzle after dinner. J said this was a great b-day. Hopefully next year it will be better because we'll have a little one to help us celebrate!!

Like My New Layout???

Thanks to Jenny at Pink Armchair Designs I have a CUTE new design for my blog. She is so incredibly talented!!! I simply told her the colors I liked and that I was a polka dotty and stripes kind of girl, and this is what she came up with!!! It's very "ME". Go by and check out her designs. You'll be very glad you did!!

THANK YOU JENNY!!!!!!!

Nu.va Ri.ng and other stuff

I hate that I have to take BCP, but in order to have my cycles I have to take the junk. I told Dr. K at my annual visit that I didn't want to have to take a pill every day for the next 10-15 years. His suggestion was an IUD, but I wasn't so sure about that. It just kind of wigged me out to have something foreign inside my uterus for 5 years. So I started the Nu.va Rin.g today, and I was surprised at how huge it was!! It was awkward to insert, but I think I finally got it in the right spot. I don't feel it, so that's a good thing. Question is...will J know it's there???

For the last year or so I have been so emotional. Before we started ttc and had the m/c's I never was a cryer. It took a lot to make me cry, and even the sadest moments couldn't get the waterworks gushing. But now...I cry at the dumbest things. Take the Pedigree commercials for example. The ones where they are saying that for every dog that is adopted there is one that isn't and they're showing a dog wagging its tail in a cage watching a couple pass by and go to another cage. OMG!!! I cry like a baby when I see that commercial. As if that one isn't bad enough, now they've come out with another one. It talks about when owners move and leave their dogs behind and it shows a dog just sitting there wagging its tail like it has no clue what's going on. They're killing me here!!! What is going on with me?

OMG This is so funny!!!!

http://www.geekoffice.com/index.php?option=com_content&task=view&id=643

Identity Crisis

I've decided that the title of my blog doesn't reflect our new journey very well. But I have mixed emotions about changing it because 1.) it hasn't been long since I changed it, and 2.) I have no idea what to change it to. I just feel like now that we're no longer ttc I need a title that better describes our current adoption journey.

So here are the things that I've come up with so far:

• Love Knows No Boundaries
• Heartstrings
• Boundless Love
• Fertile Life...a little explanation here...I just feel like through adoption our life as a family would be so fertile and full. Is it too awkward of a title since it used to be an infertility blog?
• Bound By Love
• Baby Love

I really like Baby Love and Fertile Life. But I need your help. Please vote for the one that you like best!!!!

UGH!!!!

After I got out of the shower today I reached for my hair dryer and tried to turn it on only to realize that it had died. (It did last 5 years of almost everyday use, so I guess I can't complain too much!) So I headed off to Tar.get to buy a new one with sopping wet hair. I just knew someone from a "make-over" show was going to be there ready to scold me for looking so hidious!! But, I was able to make it there and back with no ambush make-over. So by the time I got home my hair was frizzy (thanks to my natural curls). For those who don't know, if you have naturally curly hair, you either dry it as soon as you can so you can forgo the frizz, or let it dry on it's own and throw it up in a clip. There's no salvaging air-dried hair with the hopes of having it look decent down and curly. It will end up down and frizzy (well my hair is anyway). So my choices were to rewash it to get my pretty, frizzless curls back, or dry it, flat iron it and go with straight hair. Today is a fairly humidity-free day, so I went with the latter. J will be so shocked. I never wear my hair straight because, 1.) we live in a very humid area of the US, and naturally curly headed people end up with frizzy hair the second they step outdoors, 2.) it takes too freaking long to dry it and flat iron it, 3) it shows way more gray than I'd like to world to know I have, and 4) I look better with full hair, and when I flat iron it, it makes my hair look too thin. J's gonna think he's gotten a new wife...no glasses, 15 pounds lighter and straight hair. Hmmm, could make for an interesting evening!! :o)