I'm Out!

I had a huge temp dip this morning so AF is on her way. Guess I won't get to be a preggers buddy with MW after all. That would have been too nice of a story. Now I get to throw more money down the drain for another IUI cycle. Bitter??? You betcha!

Update...Just saw my friend MW...burst into tears the minute I saw her. So I went out and bought me a bottle of wine, some chocolate, and a new box of hair color...I'm good...for now.

Update #2...who the hell am I kidding?? I'm not fine. I'm not pregnant, my would-be due date is in 4 days, I have a friend who's pregnant and I have to see every day for the next 8 months, and my hair turned out black despite it saying the color was medium brown. It can't get any worse, can it??? God, please don't let it get any worse!!! I don't know how much more of this I can take!!!!

Why Do I Do This To Myself?

I broke down and tested yesterday because I'm weak...BFN. Not a total shock. But the thing is...I was only 11DPO, but I thought I was 12DPO so now I seem like even more of a dork! WHY DO I DO THIS TO MYSELF EVERY MONTH????? Where's my padded room? *runs away screaming*

It's Done!!!

I just got back from my IUI...it went well although it took a little longer than Dr. K thought. He said my uterus was a little tilted, and it was a hard. Makes me wonder if we were too late in doing the IUI, but at this point only time will tell. It wasn't too painful. I'm a little crampy right now, but nothing major.

The lab tech said J's SA was great. She said they normally like to see a post-wash of 10 mil, but J's was 55 mil! Woo Hoo!!! Go J!!!

Thought y'all might want to hear the conversation in the room before the IUI. It was really funny.

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Dr. K: Ready to make a baby?

Me: Yep, I've been ready.

Dr. K: This won't take long, and it's a fairly easy process. Now watch...I'll jinx myself and it'll be difficult. *Looks at SA from this morning* Tell J everything looks great! Concentration is great. Grade is excellent.

Nurse C: Are your toes wet or are they just cold?

Me: They're cold. J always complains about my cold feet.

Dr. K: So there's no snuggling going on, huh?

Me: No. We bought a king sized bed because J is always saying "Get your cold feet off me woman."

Everyone laughs

Dr K: Okay, relax. He inserts speculum and then laughs and says, "Get your cold feet off me woman." and then he laughs again.

*He starts the process but struggles a little.*

Dr. K: See, I jinxed myself. Normally I would have been done by now.

*He gets a different tool.*

Me: Momma always said I was hard headed.

Dr. K: Well I don't know about hard headed, but your cervix is definitely hard, and your cervix is a little tilted.

*He rearranges the speculum and inserts sperm.*

Dr. K: Now that's more like it. All done. Say a prayer, and tonight, get busy. Only God will know whether it was the IUI or the natural way that got you pregnant, but get busy as much as possible tonight. I better be getting good news in a couple weeks. *winks and shakes my hand*
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Well, now I guess I'm in the 2ww...hoping to bring y'all some good news in a couple weeks!!!

IUI Scheduled for Tomorrow!!

I got my definite + OPK this morning so I called my OB to schedule my IUI. I'll go pick up the cup this afternoon, and our appt is at 8:30 in the morning. It'll take the lab about an hour to get everything ready for the IUI, and then I'll walk over to my OB for the actual procedure. I'm so nervous!! Wish us luck!!!

Tick Tock, Tick Tock...

I'm waiting on my + OPK. I thought the one from this morning was +, but the more I look at it the more I'm thinking it's an almost +. However, the ones from this afternoon and this evening were definitely -. I don't think I missed my LH surge because 1.) CD14 is early for me to O, and 2.) I did this last cycle. I had an almost + kind of early, followed by several definitely -, then came the definite +. So we'll see that tomorrow holds. No EWCM, but it's watery. And my CP is HS, but not quite open. Ugh...too many factors!!! I'm having little twinges on the left side (it's always the left side, btw) so I will probably be calling tomorrow or Tuesday at the lastest to set up the IUI. I'll keep y'all posted!!!

Just Twidling My Thumbs

There's nothing new to report today other than the typical Clomid headache and fatigue. I'm still in awe (and a little anxious, truth be told) about the fact that we're moving on the IUI. I don't know why I'm in awe. I knew that was the next step, but something inside of me kept saying it wouldn't come to that. I guess I just wanted to believe so badly that us having a baby wouldn't involve a science experiment with centrifuges. It's not a bad thing, don't get me wrong, I had just hoped it could happen naturally, you know? I just keep telling myself that this is all going to be so worth it in the end. This is my ticket to parenthood, and I'm going to do everything humanly possible to see that it happens.

I didn't get much advice about IUI's with my last post. If you've gone through an IUI, PLEASE share your experiences!!!!

Plan for Cycle 15

So the plan for this cycle is to keep the Clomid at 100mg, but this time we're going to try an IUI. I'm very nervous about the IUI, and according to my doctor it only ups my chances of getting pregnant by about 5%, but at this point in the game I'll take any increase in chances that I can get!

I thought J might have some issues with the IUI, but he was on board with it. He's been saying for a few weeks now that he thinks he needs an SA done, but my doctor seems to disagree seeing as how he's gotten me pregnant twice already. He asked if they would keep a sample to test it, and I said, "No babe, they're gonna put 'em all in there. There will be no swimmer left behind." lol (For those of you who are teachers, you'll appreciated that joke.)

I just love Dr. K. He's always so reassuring and supportive. He knows where I am because it took he and his wife a long time to conceive their baby. I asked him today when I needed to quit trying. He patted me on my leg and said, "Not yet." Hearing those words really calmed my spirit. He said, "I know you're tired because it has been over a year since you started trying, and your year has held a lot of drama, but I'm still putting my money on you having a child soon." Those words were music to my ears. I know he wasn't making any promises (and honestly, I'm glad he didn't make any promises), but the fact that he isn't counting me out as a lost cause really did make me feel a whole lot better.

I told Dr. K I had been worried about my temps, and he looked at me with this look, and I knew I was in trouble. He said, "Have you ever told me you were temping?" I said, "No." Then he said, "You'll never hear me say anything about BBT because it's just too unpredictable. Quit temping!" My response to that was, "I can't. I'm obsessive." He said, "Well obsess about quitting!" So I said, "How 'bout if I don't temp after I get a solid thermal shift." He shook his head and said, "Quit temping! It's not doing you any good." I laughed and he said, "See you in a couple weeks."

Wow, I can't believe we're moving on to IUI. Any and all IUI advice is greatly appreciated!!!