It's Been A While...

Sorry I've been so sporadic in posting. My life is pretty much filled with putting drops in my eyes, working, and doing housework. Fun times!!! Eyes are getting better. Still feels like I have something in my right eye, but it feels less like a daggar and more like dust or a dry contact. And I still have a haze in my left eye, but Dr. H says it's getting better. YEA!!! Here's a funny...I went to MW's little boy's birthday party on Saturday, and one of the moms comes up and asks, "Do you have pink eye?" I SOOOOO wanted to say, "Yep, now where are your children so I can infect them!! Mwwwaaaaahhh!!!!!" But I was good and explained that I had had intral.ase on Thursday.

J got the news that he's changing positions at work. Keep in mind that this is the job we actually moved to BR for almost 3 years ago, and he's just now getting the position. But I'm really mixed about the job because it means that in 2 years or so we're going to be moving back to Hou.ston. That really makes me uneasy. My family is in Hou.ston which is really the only draw to the city. But all my friends (except my bff, S) are here in BR. The Lord has really blessed us with some WONDERFUL friends here, and it just breaks my heart that we'll be leaving. I always knew we'd be leaving at some point, but now there's a finish line in sight. I know most of you are thinking that I'm stupid to start getting so sad this far away, but you never know with Exx.on. We only had 6 weeks notice when we were moving here. They could up and move us at any time once he's had the job for a while. There's no guarantee that we'll actually be here for 2 years. It could be less. I'm tearing up now!! But another part of me is relieved for J. He's been so uneasy with the position he's in right now. He's tired of it, and he's ready for a change. So for that, I'll be glad when he's in the new position. But the other bad part is that he's going to be working much longer hours. And that sucks too. But I keep reminding myself that a happy husband means that the times we do have together will be happier. Just keep J in your prayers. He has a week and a half to train the new guy for a position that J's been doing for about 6+ years (between here and Hous.ton), all the while transitioning to his new position. He's going to be one pooped fella when all is said and done.

LASIK Update

The surgery went well. I am having lots of discomfort (like something big is in my eye and I can't wash it out) in my right eye, but Dr. H said everything looked excellent this morning when I went back for my follow-up. He put some numbing drops in and a bandage contact in my right eye to help with the discomfort, but once the numbing drops wore off the contact was too bothersome so I took it out a little while ago. My left eye is still a little fuzzy, but it's 20/25 now. He said the fuzziness will go away as the swelling goes down. My right eye, even with the discomfort, is 20/20. I'm to use 3 types of drops several times a day to help with the swelling, infection, and dryness. I go back to see Dr. H on Monday.

Thank you all for your prayers. It really is weird to be able to see like a normal person!!! I'll post pre and post pics in a few days!!

Intr.alase Surgery tomorrow

My appointment for Intr.alase (LASIK) surgery is tomorrow morning at 6:40 AM. (ACK!!) I'm excited because I've been wearing glasses for 21 (almost 22) years. And I'm excited about being able to wear real sunglasses instead of having to clip mine on my glasses. But I'm also very nervous because they're going to be messing with my eyes. That's just scary!!! So when I get really nervous and feel like backing out I keep telling myself how wonderful it will be to be able to wake up and instantly see the alarm clock without having to hunt down my glasses first, or how amazing it will be to be able to get ready without having my glasses get in the way. Those reminders give me a moment of relief from the nervousness. Please pray that everything goes smoothly. This surgery is bittersweet, really. Bitter because I couldn't have this done while we were trying to get pregnant, so now that we're no longer trying I can finally get it done (which brings lots of emotions to the forefront because I'd much rather be trying to get pregnant than having the surgery). But sweet because it's something I've always wanted to do because I HATE wearing glasses.

A Little This and A Little That

Saw this on Anla's blog and wanted to share it with all my infertile friends. I don't know why, but I'm always so excited when I hear of an infertility story placed out there for the world to read. More poeple need to know that it doesn't come easy for everyone. I feel so much empathy for the author of this story and I commend her for stepping out with her story.

I've been feeling pretty weird lately. Not weird in a good way, but weird in an "I think I'm getting sick" kind of way. My head feels weird, my throat hurts, I was very nauseated and woosy yesterday so I stayed home from work because I was afraid to get in the shower feeling woosy. I had the flu shot so I know it's not that. I think the nausea and the dizziness was becasue I woke up in the middle of the night and took a pain pill on an empty stomach because my arthritis was bothering me to the point that I couldn't get comfortable. My arthritis is continuing to reek havok on me, so at this point until AF comes I can only take pain pills, Ale.ve or Ad.vil. I really am ready for AF to show. I called Dr. C on Monday to tell her I wasn't any better, so she called in the Meth.otre.xate and Fo.lic Ac.id. As much as I dread taking the Meth.otre.xate because that officially puts an end to our ttc journey, I'm ready to start feeling better, so I'm getting anxious about taking it. It's hard to sit back and know that I'm only a few pills away from feeling better, but I can't take them until I know for sure that I'm not pregnant. (Which BTW...I didn't even O with the Fem.ara), but in the off chance that a miracle happened and I did (though I know I didn't--just check my chart to see that beautiful annovulatory cycle), I have to wait. Come on AF!!!!

I have a consultation appointment for LA.SIK surgery on Tuesday with an appt for the procedure on Thursday. I'm so freaking excited!!! (I just hope I'm not getting sick so it doesn't have to be postponed.) I went to one doctor who said that I was only a candidate for PR.K because my corneas are too thin for LA.SIK. However, when I talked to one of the leading eye clinics here in BR, the lady said that I am very close to being a candidate (corneas that are no lower than 500 microns thick is the cut-off...I'm 465). She said that there is a new (more expensive, of course) procedure called Intra.lase that uses only lasers so it's safer for people with corneas thinner than 500 microns. But since I haven't seen the doctor yet she can't say that I am definitely a candidate for the Intra.ase or not. So I see Dr. Ha.ik (a distant relative of J's family) on Tuesday and he'll tell me if I can have the Intra.lase or if I have to have the PR.K. The negative side to the PR.K is that it's more painful and has a longer healing time. I'll be out of work for a week if I have to have the PR.K. With the Intra.lase I can go back to work the next week. I'm praying I can have the Intra.lase.