A Little This and A Little That

Saw this on Anla's blog and wanted to share it with all my infertile friends. I don't know why, but I'm always so excited when I hear of an infertility story placed out there for the world to read. More poeple need to know that it doesn't come easy for everyone. I feel so much empathy for the author of this story and I commend her for stepping out with her story.

I've been feeling pretty weird lately. Not weird in a good way, but weird in an "I think I'm getting sick" kind of way. My head feels weird, my throat hurts, I was very nauseated and woosy yesterday so I stayed home from work because I was afraid to get in the shower feeling woosy. I had the flu shot so I know it's not that. I think the nausea and the dizziness was becasue I woke up in the middle of the night and took a pain pill on an empty stomach because my arthritis was bothering me to the point that I couldn't get comfortable. My arthritis is continuing to reek havok on me, so at this point until AF comes I can only take pain pills, Ale.ve or Ad.vil. I really am ready for AF to show. I called Dr. C on Monday to tell her I wasn't any better, so she called in the Meth.otre.xate and Fo.lic Ac.id. As much as I dread taking the Meth.otre.xate because that officially puts an end to our ttc journey, I'm ready to start feeling better, so I'm getting anxious about taking it. It's hard to sit back and know that I'm only a few pills away from feeling better, but I can't take them until I know for sure that I'm not pregnant. (Which BTW...I didn't even O with the Fem.ara), but in the off chance that a miracle happened and I did (though I know I didn't--just check my chart to see that beautiful annovulatory cycle), I have to wait. Come on AF!!!!

I have a consultation appointment for LA.SIK surgery on Tuesday with an appt for the procedure on Thursday. I'm so freaking excited!!! (I just hope I'm not getting sick so it doesn't have to be postponed.) I went to one doctor who said that I was only a candidate for PR.K because my corneas are too thin for LA.SIK. However, when I talked to one of the leading eye clinics here in BR, the lady said that I am very close to being a candidate (corneas that are no lower than 500 microns thick is the cut-off...I'm 465). She said that there is a new (more expensive, of course) procedure called Intra.lase that uses only lasers so it's safer for people with corneas thinner than 500 microns. But since I haven't seen the doctor yet she can't say that I am definitely a candidate for the Intra.ase or not. So I see Dr. Ha.ik (a distant relative of J's family) on Tuesday and he'll tell me if I can have the Intra.lase or if I have to have the PR.K. The negative side to the PR.K is that it's more painful and has a longer healing time. I'll be out of work for a week if I have to have the PR.K. With the Intra.lase I can go back to work the next week. I'm praying I can have the Intra.lase.