Where Has the Time Gone?

Many apologies for neglecting my blog. There hasn't been much going on in life until two days ago when our computer at home crashed. But I wasn't worried when that happened...I had everything backed up! SO I THOUGHT!!!

Two weeks ago before I left on my scrapbooking trip I backed up the computer. I dragged the "My Documents" folder onto our external hard drive, and it spent almost an hour copying files. When it was done I looked on the F drive and there were all of our pictures, documents, music files, etc....

Our computer has been running really slowly lately so we started poking around on it and noticed that several things were appearing on our computer several times. So we started deleting some of the copies. That's when the computer went haywire. J tended to the computer for hours and got it all up and running and I transferred the files from the external to the computer. That's when we noticed all of our adoption stuff, our financial files, and many other important files that were in our "My Doctuments" folder were missing from the external. I panicked!!! All those files were in the folder on the external when I left town. J thinks that our computer just didn't accept them when I loaded them back on and wiped them off the F drive somehow. He ran some recovery software, and some of the files were found, but of course not the adoption files or the financial records.

The computer had been acting up lately (not keeping our internet history even though we have it set to hold it for 5 days...the fan starts running really loudly if we're watching videos or listening to music, and it sounds like an airplane taking off...taking forever to boot up and shut down, etc...). But even with those things happening we figured we had a few more months to save up more money for a new one. Boy were we wrong!!!

J thinks that our computer reverted back to a date in October during the recovery process for some reason because he found last year's financial records up to October, but nothing from 2008 (which is when all the adoption stuff was added to the computer.) This has been a nightmare!!!!!

We're buying a new computer tomorrow, but we're lost without our financial stuff, and I'm just sick about our adoption stuff. We had already started writing our Dear BM letter, and I had some information that people had sent me about agencies and books and info about adoption. Our autobiographies that we spent HOURS writing for our HS are lost, but the agency is faxing me a copy so I can retype them on the new computer.

Now for the good news...
Our photo books that our potential BM's will look through came in, and they look AWESOME!!!!

Adoption News...
We're almost done filling out our applications for both agencies. We just have to get our family history, and that means that I have to call my dad (YUCK) to ask about my grandparents. I've tried asking my mom, but she doesn't remember. (Damn!) We're almost to the waiting point!!!! YEA!!!!!

Funny News...
I had to go see Dr. K so he could fill out a form for St. Eliz.abeth's stating that he deemed me infertile. (To remind you...St. E's give priority to infertiles...the one time being infertile has it's perks!) He came in his office and walked over like he always does to shake my hand, but this time he said, "I know you well enough to get a hug, right?" Then we talked a bit about why I was there. He said this was the first time he had ever had to fill out something this detailed. (Normally it's just a form that states that you're physically, mentally and emotionally stable enough to adopt.) He had to fill out my whole history...all procedures, all treatments, miscarriages, etc...He started laughing when it asked about my teeth. He told me to smile, and then he wrote that my teeth were healthy. He had to write my pulse rate and blood pressure, which were both elevated (130/90 and 90 bpm) b/c I had talked to J about the computer right before they took me back. He said, "That's not gonna look good." and then winked*. Then he had to write about whether I was emotionally stable enough to be a parent, and he looked up at me and said, "Well, we've never hung out socially, but you never had an emotional meltdown in my office, so I'm gonna have to say that I find you emotionally stable enough. If only I had to answer that question about all my patients."

It took him about 10-15 minutes to fill everything out. He handed it to me to read over, and I noticed everything showed that I was healthy (*wink, wink) and completely infertile. As I was leaving he said, "Please keep us posted on what happens especially since I've had to fill all this out." I laughed and said, "Yeah, now you're vested in this, huh?" And he said the sweetest thing..."I've been vested in this for you, girl." Awww, I love my doc.

He walked out after me and said, "You know what's gonna happen don't you?" And I said, "It better not now that I'm back on the Meth.otre.xate. But wouldn't that be ironic?" He winked and said, "That's why you're on the folic acid, but I'd be much more comfortable if it didn't happen. I'll see ya soon, and you better have a baby in tow."

Arthritis News...
I went to see Dr. C a couple weeks ago and she upped my Metho.trex.ate to 20mg/week and my Remi.cade to 600mg every 8 weeks, and I FEEL AMAZING!!!! I am FINALLY back to my old self. I haven't hit the gym just yet. I want to wait until after my next Remi.cade infusion, but I am PRAISING GOD that I am feeling better. My endless flare that began in October is FINALLY OVER!!!!! I can walk without limping, I can open jars without J's help, I can do laundry without my hands hurting, and I can do housework without feeling it for days afterwards (though I think I'll keep the housekeeper once a month b/c I've gotten spoiled!). I have waited for this day for months, and it's finally here!!!! A day without pain is just amazing!!!!

So that's what life in the Haik household has been like lately.

Happy Wednesday y'all!!!