And 1 to go. I'm not really analyzing my chart. I know better. Just putting in my temps and logging off. I haven't even been on the FF and LP boards much. I just don't feel like chatting with people who want to know about my symptoms and who look at my chart and get all excited with a temp jump or dip. Nope. This cycle I'm taking it easy and rolling with the punches. I don't want to get all excited for nothing. Isn't it sad what this journey does over time?
Please say a prayer for me tonight (if you're the praying type). I'm invited to MW's (my fertile myrtle friend) house for a Pamp.ered Ch.ef (PC) party, and 3 of the ladies who will be there are pregnant. I'm SOOO not looking forward to this, but I don't want to hurt MW's feelings by not going, and honestly, I REALLY like PC stuff, and there are things that I really want to buy. So I'm going. I'm going to suck it up and go. Please Lord...don't let there be too much pregnancy happiness!!!! I know I'm almost through the tww, and there's a possiblility that I am pregnant right now, but I'm in that "I have no idea, but I don't really think I am" stage so I really don't want to hear about all their pregnancies. Maybe I should show up late just in time for the demonstration and ordering. Hmmmm, that's an idea.
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"For this child I have prayed"
-1 Samuel 1:27
-1 Samuel 1:27
All About Me...
- Janna
- Houston, Texas, United States
- I am a 40 yr old imperfect Christian woman who's madly in love with my husband, Jon. We've been married for 10 mostly wonderful years. I say mostly because we spent 2 heartbreaking years trying to conceive, and those years were NOT wonderful years. We have two beautiful girls who came into our lives through adoption...Little Bit and Chipmunk. Little Bit was born in Sept 2008, and Chipmunk was born in February 2009. No, that's not a typo...our girls are 5 1/2 months apart! Life is crazy hectic, but they are our greatest blessings, and we are so thankful to God for building our family through adoption! I have psoriatic arthritis, naturally curly hair, and PCOS with insulin resistance.
My Favorite Things
- scrapbooking & making cards
- spending time with friends and family
- children's laughter
- singing
- shopping
- traveling
- Diet Coke
- playing the piano
- volunteering
- watching TV
- bling!
Followers
Our Angels
Angel #1, With us for 5w4d, chemical pregnancy, natural m/c 8/7/06
(edd 4/12/07)
Angel #2, With us for 9w3d, missed m/c, D&C 1/16/07
(edd 8/18/07)
Angel #2, With us for 9w3d, missed m/c, D&C 1/16/07
(edd 8/18/07)
My Precious Niece
Her First Dance Recital
The Loves of My Life!
TTC History
- Dec. '05 - off BCP (58 day cycle, O'd on CD43), started temping in Jan. '06
- Feb. '06 - 109 day cycle, no O
- Apr. '06 - Dx with PCOS, took Prometrium for 10 days to induce AF, start Clomid on CD5
- May '06 - Clomid 50 mg, O'd but BFN
- June '06 - Clomid 50 mg, BFP (chemical pregnancy at 5w4d)
- Aug. '06 - break cycle
- Sept. '06 - Clomid 50 mg, BFN
- Oct. '06 - Clomid 50 mg, BFN
- Nov. '06 - Clomid 100 mg - BFP
- Jan. '07 - Missed M/C at 9w3d, D&C
- Feb. '07 - break Cycle, on BCP to get AF, Antibody and clotting b/w done, all normal
- Mar. '07 - break cycle, on BCP to get AF
- Apr. '07 - Clomid 100 mg, BFN
- May '07 - Clomid 100 mg, BFN
- June '07 - Clomid 100 mg, BFN
- July '07 - Clomid 100 mg with IUI, BFN
- Aug. '07 - Clomid 100 mg with IUI, BFN
- Sept. '07 - Clomid break cycle, taking FertilityBlend. HSG on 9/28: Tubes all clear!! BFN
- Oct. '07 - Lap on 10/16: nothing other than the typical PCOS ovaries found. I should be happy about that, but for some reason I'm disappointed. I wanted some answers as to why we're not getting pregnant post D&C.
- Nov. '07 - Clomid 100 mg, 2000 mg Met, IUI, BFN
- Dec. '07 - Femara, 2000 mg Met, natural BD, BFN - Didn't even O
- Jan '08 - threw in the towel, started BCP
Adoption Timeline
- Jan. '08 - researching
- Feb. '08 - started home study for domestic infant adoption
- March '08 - individual meetings with SW
- April '08 - chose 2 agencies to work with, HS COMPLETE!!!
- July '08 - applications turned in!!
- August '08 - Dear EM letter Complete!!!
- September '08 - Profiles Complete and Officially on the "Waiting Parent" list!!!
Fighting Infertility (* Denotes Pregnancies)
Made It To The Mommy Side After Infertility
- A Day in the Life of a Moody Person (Rian)
- A Somewhat Ordinary Life
- All You Need is Love (Sheri)
- Changing Expectations
- Fertile Hope (Trish)
- Fertility Futility
- Fertilized!! (Farah)
- Fumbling Towards Eggstacy (Heidi)
- Grateful Always (Beth)
- Jen and Carter
- Kicking You From the Inside (Kate)
- Life in the White House (Jess)
- Luck Doesn't Happen Twice (Kim)
- Mandy's Blog
- My Journey to Mommyhood (Courtney)
- My Prayers, His Promises (Elaine)
- Our Journey to Baby-Weathering the Storm of IF (Gretchen)
- Over My Head (Lizzy)
- Pancake Saturday (Kim)
- Praying for a Little One (Courtney)
- Raspberry Chip (Rachel)
- Relaxing Doesn't Make Babies (Natalie)
- Reproductive Jeans (JJ)
- Roadblocks and Rollercoasters
- Serenity Now
- Sticky But Sweet (Kristen)
- That Was the Plan
- The Sticky Bean Preconception Journal (Kristen)
Adoption Blogs (*Current Match!!, +Forever Family!!!)
- A Family of Love+ (Joanna)
- A Heart for Adoption+ (Mandy)
- A New Kind of Normal: Life with Infertility and Chronic Disease+ (Jamee)
- Born in Our Hearts+ (Kristi)
- Bunches of Burches+ (Sarah)
- Cross Family+ (Kasey)
- Excuse Me...I'd Like a Refund on These Ovaries (Kellie)
- Full House, Full Hands, Full Hearts+
- Henry Street+ (Rachel)
- Hopeful Family Waits (Laura)
- In Our Own Weird Way+
- Jenn's Journey+
- Life in the Phisch Bowl+
- Life in The Polar North Defrosts+ (Wendi)
- Losing the Baby Wait+
- Love, Hope and Faith+ (Christy)
- MM's Musings+ (Mary Michele)
- Not Like I Thought It Would Be+
- Our Star Was Born+ (Alison)
- Production, Not Reproduction
- Quest for a Lifetime+ (Malloryn)
- The Miller Adoption Journey+ (Jamee)
- The Voice of Adventure+ (Angel)
- Waiting for His Time+ (Erin)
- Wendy and Steve+
Other Sites I Frequent
- (Not) Coming to a Uterus Near You (Katie)
- Bring the Rain (Wife of Selah Member)
- Chick of Faith (Melissa)
- Danielle in the City
- Fertility Friend
- Jamie and Holly
- Lost and Found and Connections Abound
- Loungeplace
- Miscarriage, Stillbirth, and Infant Loss Blog Directory
- Mrs. Happy Home (Elizabeth)
- MySpace
- Opalene Stationary (Alese)
- Pink Armchair Designs
- Seriously, This is My Life (Angela)
- Steven Curtis Chapman's Blog
- Strength for Today (Tamra)
- The McFatter Clan (Melissa)
- Thoughts From a Dimple Queen (Angie)
Fertility and Adoption Lingo
- • 2WW/TWW = Two Week Wait, the weeks after ovulation and before menses
- • AF = Aunt Flo (menses)
- • AP = Adoptive Parent(s)
- • B/W = Bloodwork
- • BBT = Basal Body Temperature
- • BCP = Birth Control Pills
- • BD = Baby Dance
- • Beta = Blood pregnancy test to check the amount of HCG (pregnancy hormone) that is in your system
- • BFN = Big Fat Negative (pregnancy test)
- • BFP = Big Fat Positive (pregnancy test)
- • BM = Birthmom
- • CD# = Cycle Day #
- • CM = Cervical Mucus
- • CP = Cervical Position
- • EM = Expectant Mother
- • FMU = First Morning Urine
- • HCG = Hormone level that increases when pregnant, also Hormone injected to "trigger" ovulation
- • HPT = Home Pregnancy Test
- • HS = Home Study
- • IF = Infertility
- • IR = Insulin Resistant
- • IUI = Intrauterine Insemination (AKA "the Turkey Baster")
- • M/C = Miscarriage
- • M/S = Morning Sickness
- • Met = Metformin, drug to help with the processing of insulin
- • OPK = Ovulation Predictor Kit
- • PCOS = Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome
- • PG/Preggers = Pregnant
- • RE = Reproductive Endocrinologist
- • S/E = Side Effects
- • SA = Semen Analysis
- • SMEP = Sperm Meets Egg Plan
- • SW = Social Worker
- • TTC = Trying to Conceive
- • U/S = Ultrasound
- • WTO = Waiting To Ovulate
- • WTT = Waiting To Test
Blog Entries
Blog Entries By Topic
- 2WW (9)
- About Me (6)
- Accu (1)
- Adoption (60)
- AF (7)
- Ah-Ha Moments (3)
- Arthritis (5)
- Award (4)
- Birth Control (3)
- Book Review (3)
- D and C (2)
- Decisions (3)
- Doctor's Appointments (16)
- Family (18)
- Fertiles (6)
- FertilityBlend (1)
- Foot Surgery (8)
- Friends (17)
- Guardians (1)
- HSG (4)
- I'm Blessed (1)
- I'm tired (26)
- IF (1)
- In the news (6)
- Infertility (47)
- Insurance (1)
- IR (4)
- IUI #1 (7)
- IUI #2 (4)
- IUI #3 (6)
- Just Lounging Around (4)
- LAP (9)
- LASIK (4)
- Last Chance (2)
- Life After Miscarriage (16)
- Life Outside of TTC (4)
- Little Bit (12)
- Mardi Gras (1)
- Metformin (7)
- Miscarriage (4)
- Miscarriage #2 (5)
- Mommyhood (1)
- Mother's Day (2)
- NIAW (1)
- no longer ttc (2)
- Nursery (2)
- Oct 15th (1)
- OPK's (2)
- Prayers (9)
- Pregnancy #2 (8)
- Random Ramblings (31)
- RE (2)
- Songs (3)
- Taking a Break (2)
- TTC Again (22)
- TTC History (1)
- Vacation (6)
- Weight Loss (2)
- Work (3)
9 comments:
I WILL be praying for you my dear friend! Thanks for the email today, it really lifted me up to know I and my "problem" could help someone else. I posted a blog about it today. It started out as something else... "Company Girls", but it turned into that...I guess it has been on my mind a lot lately!
Love you friend, Ang
Hey Jana,
Maybe you remember me from UMHB. I found your blog through Angie's. Anyway, I just wanted to let you know that I'm so sorry for your heartache. I have 4 kids, but (we are the crazy type and would love another one) we have had 2 miscarriages this year. One at 5 weeks and one at 9 weeks. So while I can't say I understand what you are totally going through I can say that I know the pain of losing a baby! My dear friend Aimee has had the same problem with PCOS and not being able to be pregnant and I was always the fertile mertle friend. She started going to the chiropracter for her PCOS, got off Clomid and all other meds and bought about 100 dollars worth of vitamins she also got off all dairy because it was recommended to her. Anyway, about this time she FINALLY ovulated on her own and I had just found out I was pregnant, she cried so hard when she found out the I was expecting b/c her heart hurt so bad, I felt so bad b/c her heart hurt and I felt like I had caused that. Anyway to keep a long story from being longer that week she found out she was expecting and I found out my baby had died!
She has just brought baby Isaac home after a really long NicU stay.
I don't know if any of this helps or not but just to say only God knows where we are and what He will bless us with and when.
I originally didn't start out to tell you all of this because I have NO idea really what you are going through, but then I just ended up telling the whole story.
I am praying for your raw heart.
Hugs, Liz
Hmm.. Since some of the above comments resemble ASS-Vice may I suggest that you BUY the PIZZA STONE! It is the best thing ever. I love pampered chef! and their pizza Stone. Hang in there.
Well I am the praying type and I will be praying since i know that any party with PG's around is just plain torturous. I do think a pizza stone is a FAb idea there ... Oh and .. goodness i could go on and on about the great pampered chef stuffs. Praying now
I found your blog through a link of another blog that I frequent. You and I are at about the same cycle date following an IUI. I have enjoyed reading your blog and hope to read your happy ending soon!
Hello--it's Abbygirl from FF...I just wanted to say that I COMPLETELY FEEL YOUR PAIN. No one understands the pain of the ragged heart that will only be mended through a child's love like women who have miscarried repeatedly and still have not been able to successfully bear a child. Go late, have a glass of wine (just one, you might be pg for goodness sakes) :-) and smile at their pregnant happiness because you are such a big person to attend despite the pregnant glow emanating from them!
Sorry...that sounds so bitter...but I think right now at this very minute, I am!
Hey Janna. Just want to give you a big hug and much love and prayers. I am so sorry that we have endured such heart ache.
I hope it was bearable for you! Lots of hugs and good luck wishes coming from my state for you!
I just read through the other comments above... Let me just say that someone named Mom4kids left a comment on my blog yesterday and her assvice was about as useful as the lady above. I really don't understand why fertiles can't get it. It's not that tough: Don't give advice to an infertile on how to get pregnant! Sheesh!
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