As I said yesterday, MW and I talk about everything ttc. And when I've learned something about blood tests or hormones levels or medications, etc...we've talked about it. And because of that she's been very nervous about something going wrong. So I sent her a message apologizing for making her so "knowledgable". She sends me this email, and what she said had me in tears!!!
And again, don't be sorry about anything!!! As if!!! Yes you have definitely opened my eyes to all kinds of factors I never thought about, but hey that's life!! I wouldn't trade it for anything!! I just really pray that you get good news soon!!! But know in advance that if I am, and God forbid you aren't, there will be no fake showing of excitment when you don't want to be!!! I am a big girl in every sense of the word, and it is more important to me that you be yourself, and show your true emotions, than to be fake! I know that if you aren't happy all the time, that it isn't intended to be personal to me!! I will not have you feeling uncomfortable around me!! And if there are days you just can't be around me, I can take that too!! It won't change a thing!! But in saying all of that, I truly hope that we will be able to celebrate together!! That would be awesome, and such a gift to me!! : )
The last two sentences are the ones that really got to me. I do feel terrible for feeling jealous, but after reading all of your comments I know that it's a normal thing. I am happy for MW and JE. And I hope and pray that her pregnancy is flawless. But to know that I can be totally real with her takes a huge weight off my shoulders. I truly am blessed to have her in my life. Amidst all the stupid, insensitive fertiles that don't think about the fact that there are people out there that struggle with infertility, I just wanted y'all to know about my wonderful friend MW who is definitely NOT your typical fertile.
14 comments:
Sounds like you have been blessed with a great friend. Hopefully you two will be able to experience being pregnant together.
It is possible to hold two conflictung emotions at once, but it looks like you have a wonderful and understanding friend. That is a true blessing. :)
What a GEM!! your friend should teach classes on this. She sounds excellent and understanding
What a great friend! You both are truly lucky to have one another. True friends are hard to come by - hang on to each other!
That's really cool. What a good friend!
She is amazing. A true friend.
Never, ever let her go. It's rare to find a friend who wants you to be yourself when you're with them... ;-)
Now THAT is cool. I dig.
I have that same sort of friend. Lean on her, Janna, when you think you won't be able to see her when her belly grows... make yourself... she is reaching out and you can reach right back.
I'm going through the same with my dear friend Katie... and happy for her...
It'll be our turn someday... It really will..!!!
Great friends really make a difference...
Hoping with all hope that you get great news just around the corner...
Your friend is truly special. You are so lucky to have her!
What a great friend. Such a rare thing! As you said what a relief to know that she WANTS you to show your real self to her. I know so many people that can't take the truth and its a breath of fresh air to find someone who can and wants to!
-Betsy
What a wonderful friend. Indeed there are a *few* good fertiles out there..Glad you found yourself one. ;)
Gotta love friends like that. You are indeed blessed.
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