All Better

I'm feeling much better today, thank the Lord. I got a good cry in yesterday, and today I'm back to my normal self. Now that's not to say that I won't need another good cry after I take MW lunch today, but I'll cross that bridge when I get there. I truly think I'll be fine. It's just that yesterday it hit me hard that I'll never get to experience the miracle of child birth from MW's point of view. I'm hoping to get to experience it when our future BM (birthmom, not bowel movement!! LOL) has our baby, but I don't think there's ANYTHING that compares to having your own child.

The meeting with St. Eliz.abeth's went well. J and I are hoping to go with them as they are very laid back in their approach to letting us make the decision together with our EM about how much interaction we have with one another. They will allow us to "network" as much or as little as we want, and we can even work with another agency at the same time. Their goal is to get us a child, and they want us to reach that goal no matter how it happens. So if Ne.w Beginn.ings will allow us to work with St. Eliz.abeth's at the same time we're going for it!!! Since they both take no money until after placement, we'll only be out the application fee for the agency we don't get matched with. I told J that if they both match us I'm accepting both!! I got the "engineer glare"...for those of you who don't live with a tightwad engineer...it wasn't a pretty look. I told him I was only kidding, but a tiny part of me was serious. Though I know we won't accept both if it were to happen because that would be very selfish, and I want another couple to have the chance to be parents sooner rather than later.

I'll update you tomorrow on the meeting with New Begin.nings and J's individual interview (if it happens...he hasn't heard from our SW to confirm...I'm worried!!!)