Stab in the Heart

Today I kept my friend K's little girls because their grandparents weren't able to keep them. This is the second time that I've kept them. The first time I kept them we went to the mall to ride the carousel and play on the playround. Today we went swimming at their neighborhood pool. When we went to the mall last week I had a lady come up to me and ask me how I got my girls to have such good posture. I had to admit that they were my friend's girls, and I wasn't sure how they learned such good posture, but I'm sure the fact that they took dance played a role in it. It made me sad to have to admit that they weren't my girls, but I hid it well. Well today at the pool I had a lady come up to me and ask me where I got my girl's swimsuits. Once again I had to tell her that they weren't mine.**scream** God I wish I had kids of my own! I want to be able to answer everyone's questions about my kids! I don't want to have to keep telling people I'm just their babysitter. I'm happy to keep other people's kids, but geez, is that really as close to having children as I'm gonna get???