Spotting Spotting Everywhere

Well...I'm out. I started spotting yesterday, and my temp took a huge nose dive, so that means that AF is on her way. Oddly enough, I'm okay. I mean I did have a melt down yesterday, but today I'm okay. I'm planning to go into my doctor's appt next week and ask for every test and procedure in the book that could help us figure out why I'm not getting pragnant because I feel like I'm spinning my wheels here. I feel like we're throwing away money on IUI's, and we don't have money that we can just flush down the toilet. J won't be able to go to my appt with me, and I don't think I can say everything I want to say without falling apart and becoming a bumbling idiot. I'm really worried that I'm going to freeze up when I start crying and I won't say everything to Dr. K that I want to say. My friend, K, said that she would go with me to the appt and be my "translator" if I get to where I'm so upset that I can't talk. I wish I didn't have to have a backup, but when I was talking to her on the phone I just lost it so I know that it will be even worse when I'm sitting face to face with Dr. K. Please pray that I can have the courage to ask for everything that can be done to be done. When I finally throw in the towel I want to be able to say that I gave it my all. And at this point I can't say that.