Neverending Flare

So I'm heading in my third month of my arthritis flare. I'm 50% better than I was when I wrote this, but I'm not back to normal just yet. I'm still having trouble with my hands, though not to the extent that I was before. But it's still very hard to do anything repetative with my hands because within hours they puff up like balloons. I'm also having trouble sleeping because of hip and shoulder pain. I'm a side sleeper, but when my left hip and my right shoulder hurt, I have no side to sleep on. So I've had to learn to sleep on my back. I do fine for a while, but I innately turn to one side or the other during the night only to be awakened with sharp pains shooting through my leg or my shoulder. UGH!!! So I roll back onto my back. (If I do ever get another BFP this could pose a problem.) And in the mornings when I wake up I'm stiff for about 20 minutes. It makes it hard to do anything, and all I want to do is just lay there all day without moving a muscle, but moving is the best way to work through the stiffness.

I had another Rem.icade infusion today, but like last time I'm just not feeling as good as I normally do following the infusion. Normally I can see and feel results within hours of receiving treatment.

I have another appointment with my new rheumatologist, Dr. C, tomorrow. I'm planning to ask her about an anti-inflammatory. Hopefully I can get through this cycle before having to take it. If there's no BFP then I'll start taking it to see if it can get me through the flare. I'm hoping that it can get me under control and living in a manageable amount of pain so we can reassess our options. I'm still going to ask for adoption packets in January, but I'm hoping to be able to continue taking the clomid while we doing all the research and getting the balls rolling.

If you're the praying type, please pray that this flare ends soon. While my prayers have been answered in that I'm not struggling 24 hours a day, I'm still in a great deal of pain. I just want the pain to get to a manageable level so I can feel like myself again. Thanks!!!